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I am sleep deprived. Cross your fingers for me please <3

So, I'm almost done with my portfolio. I need to narrow down my images to maximum 15, minimum 10. So Flist, help me out here. pick the ones you think DON'T belong in here(keep in mind that this is an application for a design school, not an art school. They are looking for clean, strong visual images with excellent compositions, good color choice, etc.)
( WARNING: Extremely IMAGE HEAVY! Like seriously, this could destroy your dial-up connection! )

Here is a list of what I've done today:

Sleep til 2pm
Work on porfolio
Eat
Work on Portfolio
Eat
Work on Portfolio
Play Prehistorik Man in Dan's room
Work on Portfolio
Meat Sean
Play prehistorik man
Work on portfolio
blog about my day

I'm so close to finishing I can almost touch it... I'm debating whether or not I should pull an all nighter and finish it or go to sleep, discuss progress with teacher and finish it tomorrow...

Was working on my portfolio. Here's what I've been listening to :)

So I finally cracked and started playing World of Warcraft. I'm playing a male Blood-Elf Rogue named luciuspimp on the Maiev server... it's pretty damn addictive... like heroin.

Also cracked and started reading twilight. It's good. Still don't get why there's so much hype about it... it's not spectacular. I plan on reading the series though.

Finally turned in my portfolio, I find out the verdict in April. I'm confident I'll get in this time.... even though they only pick 20 students into their program. I SHALL BE ONE OF THOSE TWENTY! >:D

Aaaaaaand, school is boring. I graduate May 2nd. My parents want me to go to the ceremony. Meh.

V-day's coming up, and ironically enough, i'll be spending it alone even though I am not single... go figure.

I sound emo... that's not good.

Oh yeah! Been playing football on Sundays... it's very fun ^^ Nikun and Dozor taught me how to throw correctly. It's fun.

I AM GOING TO FINISH IT TONIGHT!!!! I SHALL NOT REST UNTIL IT'S DONE

I have class in 23 minutes! It's a poetry writing class. Now before you start tilting your head and going "wtf? hewtab? poetry!? *twitch*" let me just say that it used to be a world literature class before sfcc decided to cancel said awesome class two days before the start of term. SO... I had to pick a new class after 15000 students had already registered. It was either this or some sort of chemistry so I'm glad there were seats available here.

ANYWHO, I've been getting wonderful feedback on my student portfolio so I'm very excited and anxious to get it over with *crosses fingers* After class I'm going to check the lunchroom to see if there is anyone I know, if not, I'll go home and work on my portfolio some more. I feel like I should name my portfolio something... just calling it portfolio sounds mean y'know? so what should I call it?

....I think I'll name it Auriga (Our-eye-gah) Sinistra X) *dorks it out*

I have 3 pages done and a set format! Taking a break for tonight though, I don't want to be sick of it by the time I have to start nitpicking at every single little millimeter of it XD

In other news, college started today. I have ONE class on Monday, ONE class on Tuesday, TWO classes on Wednesday and ONE class on Thursday. I'm free on Fridays! I'm not even a full time student anymore o_____O WOOOOOO! So yeah, this semester is going to be awesome. :D

I have 3 weeks to finish and turn in my portfolio (deadline is march 15 but I want to hand it in Feb 1st) Today I designed the cover! I have all of my artworks chosen and photographed, all I need is to post them and the info (and you know, make it look pretty) I have a design in mind that correlates to the cover so it should be no problem :D

I also did 50% of my laundry! I have pants now :D

School starts tomorrow! Ugh!

I'm off to take a shower.

Oh yeah! And I might go to Puerto Rico this spring break *crosses fingers*

I am working on my portfolio right now! ZOMG O_o I deserve a prize! woo!

I'm sick of my home and I'm homesick for my old home. I haven't been back home (Puerto Rico) since graduation. I miss it. I want to go back for a little while but I'm broke. I don't even know why I want to go back so badly when a year ago I was desperate to leave it behind. I miss Zoey and my grandma. I miss the heat and the traffic. I miss Spanish. I miss the frogs at night, I miss the caco's blaring music at 2 am. I miss the sirens, I miss knowing that there is a party going one somewhere (even though I probably wouldn't go). I miss it a lot. I want to go back for a little while. Why can't I go? Why am I so busy yet have nothing to do? Why do I lack motivation? Why??? What's so great about home and why do I miss it so much? It's driving me crazy. I think about it everyday, it's like Harry Potter, it's ever present in my mind. I should be worrying about more important things. This sucks!! Everything relatively close and important is blurry around the edges yet not-so-important things are crisp and sharp. It's retarded! I should be worrying about my portfolio, about my sketchbook, about my test on Friday! Instead I'm worrying about a convention that hasn't been confirmed and is four years away. FOUR YEARS. I feel stuck, I want to clear my mind, I want to regain motivation and focus. How can I do that? I feel like I do everything that is important half-heartedly and I work hard at things that are trivial. WHY??? I consciously know I'm doing it, why can't I stop!? Anyone else ever feel this way?

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