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My driver's License was suspended because I was caught speeding twice within the span of nine months. WTF? Are all states this strict with speeding laws? Puerto Rico doesnt suspent your license unless you get a DUI D:< I HATE YOU FLORIDA

So I'm having a pretty horrendous day. I woke up 30 minutes late with a cold (still worried it may be swine flu since i was exposed to it about a week ago). So it's 9:00 am I have 30 minutes to get to class and I feel like crap. SO i take some cold and flu medicine along with robitussin and go on my merry way. On my way down to class I trip and fall on the dorm stairs. I only fell two steps but i hurt my foot pretty badly and scraped my knee. My right foot didn't hurt too much during the morning but it's growing progressively worse and now I am limping. The pain isn't bad enough to make me think it's a fracture (from what i've heard, it's pretty unbearable) but it still hurts a lot when I move it. I think it may be sprained so i'm trying not to walk on it too much :/

other than that, at least it's the weekend :)

Um.. no not really BUT I donated blood today. LOTS of blood. I almost fainted when I was doing so because I hadn't eaten breakfast yet... not a good idea. They held me hostage in the blood mobile because apparently I looked like a ghost. :/  Anywho, I was held hostage for about 30 minutes while the other donors looked at me and thought twice about donating. The nurse made me drink coca-cola because I needed sugar in my system and stuff so after I drank that i told them I had to go. It was really cold in there. I walked to my dorm, ate a chicken pot pie and promptly passed out on my bed. I'm still feeling weak and woozy... needless to say I wont be donating blood on an empty stomach again x_x Also art history class was extremely dull and i almost passed out there too... i can't bend my left arm because the injection site is slightly inflamed and bruised.

I dreamed I had to buy him a birthday present. I woke up thinking my dream thing was a good idea and then I remembered we're not dating anymore. I don't know if I prefer the nightmares...

I talked to him today and let him know how I felt about the breakup. It helped a lot to talk about it. While I'm still very sad and emotional, I think this is nudging me towards the "moving on" path. I can't wait to get out of this emo corner. I've been watching Dr.Horrible to help me cope, it is keeping me together.

I had a nightmare this morning, only to realize it was all true. This shit's for real. I hadn't realized how bad it was to wake up crying and then realizing why you were crying and crying some more because of it. I have to go to work in 3 hours. Worst part is I can't even talk to him about it. I need a hug a big long hug.

I just broke up with Jason. I'm feeling pretty shitty right now. I think it hurts more than my first breakup. I'm pretty destroyed at the moment. v_v

It's way too early for me =_= I had to take the morning shift today *grumble grumble* I hate the morning shift! Because:

1. Have to be up at 8 am
2. Have to go to the bank *ugh*
3. Will be all alone manning the store for the first 4 hours
4. I always have to pee before someone comes to relieve me
5. I always manage to have 2 people in line while i'm helping a difficult customer and the phone starts ringing
6. I get bored
7. I get cold
8. I get tired

I caught the plague >.<

So when I got back from JACON I had lost my voice, and I just assumed it had been because of all the screaming I did. I woke up this morning with a coughing fit and the diagnosis is a cold. BLEEERGH I hate having a cold >.< It's very mild though, but a cold nonetheless. Needless to say I've been ingesting large quantities of Florida Orange juice, so much so that I think my urine will turn orange.... sorry that was tmi wasn't it. x_x Blergh *has a coughing fit*

Pre-finals hustle week. Meaning lots and lots of homework/projects/deadlines/tests/coffee/work/stress. So happy-fun-times ahead with what I have to "look forward" to:

1. Chap book for poetry class (a compilation of about 20 poems by yours truly)
2. Video for Creative video making (an abstract film)
3. Three more mythical portraits
4. The dreaded Sketchbook Assignment
5. Acceptance letters... *shudders*

Things I'm REALLY looking forward to:

1. Shoddy Beatles band
2. HatP in Orlando
3. Busch Gradens
4. Harry/Ginny Photoshoot @ Disney World
5. Breaking Dawn
6. Graduation
7. North Carolina
8. New York
9. Acceptance letter?

Also, here are all of my poems for poetry class if anyone wants to read :D

JUST GET THESE FINALS AWAY FROM MEEEEEEEEE D:<

Things that need to be finished by this Wednesday:

1) 95 50 drawings left (about 20 minutes each let's see.... that's about 17 hours) turned in 75!
2) Photographic Self-Portrait (Should have taken at least 30 minutes.... took me more than an hour)
3) Self-Portrait (should take about 5 hours) Done!
4) Cover Letter (should take about 40 minutes) Done in less than 20 minutes!
5) Painting (Should take about 2 hours) Done in 10 minutes, lawl

I have about 30 hours to do 25 hours of work. That leaves me 5 hours to procrastinate!
I finished everything but 20 sketches!!!

It's past midnight. I have a self portrait, painting, cover letter, photographic self-portrait and 50 life-drawings due in two days. Screwed? That is an understatement. Tired? You bet. Sleep? I definitely hope so.

I'm sick of my home and I'm homesick for my old home. I haven't been back home (Puerto Rico) since graduation. I miss it. I want to go back for a little while but I'm broke. I don't even know why I want to go back so badly when a year ago I was desperate to leave it behind. I miss Zoey and my grandma. I miss the heat and the traffic. I miss Spanish. I miss the frogs at night, I miss the caco's blaring music at 2 am. I miss the sirens, I miss knowing that there is a party going one somewhere (even though I probably wouldn't go). I miss it a lot. I want to go back for a little while. Why can't I go? Why am I so busy yet have nothing to do? Why do I lack motivation? Why??? What's so great about home and why do I miss it so much? It's driving me crazy. I think about it everyday, it's like Harry Potter, it's ever present in my mind. I should be worrying about more important things. This sucks!! Everything relatively close and important is blurry around the edges yet not-so-important things are crisp and sharp. It's retarded! I should be worrying about my portfolio, about my sketchbook, about my test on Friday! Instead I'm worrying about a convention that hasn't been confirmed and is four years away. FOUR YEARS. I feel stuck, I want to clear my mind, I want to regain motivation and focus. How can I do that? I feel like I do everything that is important half-heartedly and I work hard at things that are trivial. WHY??? I consciously know I'm doing it, why can't I stop!? Anyone else ever feel this way?

</emo rant>

I just finished my Analytical Report. A moment of silence for the fallen...

1. 1.5 packets of paper
2. 2 ink cartridges
3. 4 yellow highlighters
4. + 50 hours of sleep
5. Social life for 3 weeks
6. Sanity
7. Grade-point average

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ENOUGH SILENCE IT'S TIME TO PARTAY!!!!! after I sleep kthnx

Have you ever wondered what a future Graphic Designer currently taking 18 credits with a part time job and no spare time's room looks like?





(apparently I have enough spare time to show you, lol)

I have cramps and Midol didn't do anything >:( *sigh*  I hate having a vagina sometimes *writhes in discomfort*

I think I lost my iPod at that motel I stayed in right after Prophecy. I must have pissed someone off royally in a previous life, there is just NO way things could get any worse... wait, yes there is, but I really really hope that those things won't happen...

So 20 minutes before class I decided to print out a sheet real quick. Well my printer says "You know what? I don't want to work when you need me to, I think I'll sit here and clack my cartridge jeeringly at you." Frikkin thing. So then I get distracted and now I notice I have 3 minutes for class to start and I'm sitting here, 10 minute drive away writing why I'm late to class instead of trying to be early. Yeah... technology sucks >:(

I forgot my art journal is due in less than 8 hours. I'm not nearly done with it at all. *sigh*